September 2021

◉ 09/17
- mood: honestly, vibin'
- card pull: IV of Swords
  • rest, restoration, comtemplation

    Wow more swords this month. This must be a good time for me, especially since I keep getting pulls saying this is a good time for me to get my energy back. I could use it after last year...I'm sure we all could honestly. It might be something about libra season coming up. I don't always feel revitalized at this point in the year, but something has been going right and I hope it stays this way for a while. I feel like I've really been enjoying work and I find myself coming home satisfied with where I'm at in my life. I've been trying to internalize the mindset of doing the best for me and not comparing myself to others, and I think it's been working. I've been doing the best I can and I shouldn't compare myself to people in different careers or different phases of life.

    I ended up getting myself a new keyoard for home cause I needed to bring my other one to work. Still waiting on the mouse to get here, but I'm really enjoying the feel of typing on it. It's not anything fancy, one of those pseudo mechanical keyboard hybrid things. Typing feels good on it, since I'm really only going to use it for that reason. Maybe a lil gaming, but I've retired from my gaming days lol. Besides, I don't play anything intensive where clicking a button a microsecond off would destroy me, so it really doesn't matter that much.

    Right now I'm super excited cause I got myself the vinyl reprint of Aqua's Aquarium and it's FUCKIN NEON YELLOW. HOW FUCKIN COOL IS THAT?! It's my all time favorite album lol I had to of listened to this at least 1000 times as a child to the point where the CD stopped working cause it was scratched to oblivion. I'll treat the vinyl much better now, I promise (╥ω╥). My vinyl collection is currently:

  • Sleep Party People (this vinyl is golden and sparkly)
  • Remain in Light
  • The White Album
  • Fritz the Cat
  • The Graduate
  • Fandango
  • Assorted 60s and 70s greatest hits collections
  • I inherited most of these from my grandparents, but I'm excited that I can add some of my own favorites to it. My dream vinyl is Daft Punk's Alive 2007 vinyl that wasn't printed much, but it's my favorite live performance and I listen to this one all the time. There's also a reallllly cool visualization video for this whole album I love to just zone out and watch. One day I will add this one to my collection so I can be a snob and listen to EDM on my outdated soundsystem lol.

    I wanna see if I can get winamp working on my computer sometime (or something like it) cause I'm really nostalgic for the time I was able to customize my media player. I hate how music streaming pretty much killed any and all customization. And there's so many fun ones I've stumbled across while going through the ruins of archived sites. Reject modernity blah blah blah the nerd on neocities says.

    ◉ 09/09
    - mood: a lil discombobulated, slightly apathetic yet energized
    - card pull: Ten of Swords (reversed)

  • reviving, rejuvination, inevitable end

    Really unsure of what this card pull means hmmmm... I've been doing alright--well, as best as I can given the circumstances. I've realized that the less I think, the better I feel as a general rule of thumb. Today was weird, work-wise. A co-worker pointed out this zit I was trying to take care of, so that was awkward lol. Maskne is real and I hate it. Also the internet went down for the last 90 minutes of work so it was hard to really accomplish much and I felt like I was on a really bad taping of Whose Line is it Anyway. Eh, at least tomorrow should be better.

    I got a new hamster ヽ(o^ ^o)ノ [photo of him]. I named him Pippin (note: I am not super into LOTR, but I am really into the aesthetics of The Shire and hobbits are basically hamsters anyway sooo...). I'm hoping over the winter I can build a new cage. The one I have now is hodgepodged together from two billy bookcase extensions, but I found a really good tutorial on how to make something less long using Ikea parts. Maybe I'll share my progress with that here.

    I'm feeling less stuck this year than I did this time last year. Maybe I've just decided to stop caring as much. I'm sure that's a defence mechanism, honestly. Not much has gotten better job-wise, but I guess I feel like if I just live in the present and not think too much about the bullshit it'll work out. One day at a time.

    I really wish I could just be a stay-at-home-whatever, but that doesn't seem like it'll be an option until I retire...just 25 more years T_T.

    P.S. I just realized I've had this site for a year now (✧∀✧)/