I've been trying my best with communication and am proud of myself for reaching out to new people and feeling like I can talk to those in my inner circle. But I still feel like I'm not doing enough. Or I'm not doing things right. I think it's easy to feel this way when I spend nearly every waking hour with the one I care about most. No wonder the cats scrap all the time.

I have been more creative at least. And they've supported me in my creative pursuits. I find myself wanting more time for these but I worry that I'm being manic or sucking myself into things too much. I don't know how to spread myself so that I am able to enjoy my own passions while maintaining relationships. I often go all or nothing with these and perhaps that's not healthy. It's as if I cannot focus on one or the other.

Oh well. Something for me to continue working on, I suppose.